Melissa's SecretTuesday, December 7, 20048:35AMFor any one who may read this our lives have been going quite well. He doesn't have a job, but it doesn't matter I make enough for the both of us. Either way things are great. I love him forever and taht's all that matters. Current mood:  indescribableThursday, September 23, 20047:44PMwell...I can say I've been quite happy for some weeks. I really don't want to say much more than that. I don't want to spoil it. I love him forever. Current mood:  happyMonday, August 23, 20047:50PMI don't really know what to say. I'm tired always. It doesn't help my mood. I don't know what more to say than that. I know he doesn't want me here but I can't leave. I'm selfish. Current mood:  crazySunday, August 15, 20045:29PMI don't even know where to start on this one. I'm hurt and not anything in the world can fix that. Will I leave him? NO. Hell no. Why? Because then he gets off too easy. I want him to look at me everyday and remember. I wish he only knew how long it took the bitch on the suicide hotline to talk me down. Current mood:  guiltyThursday, August 12, 200410:28PMOh another eventful day in the life of me. Talking to my aunt always seems to help though. I really feel strongly about going to church now. Not just to go...but just to hear and feel the word of God in my heart again. I strongly feel that I have been drifting away more and more from God. Brookes' friend Steven took him out to drink tonight. I hope he acts single since it is what he desires. (That was probably rude.) None-the-less...today was rough. I hopeit doesn't happen again. I know it will though. I just wish we could come to a common ground. Maybe someday... Current mood: crazySunday, August 8, 20042:43PMThings around here have been relatively calm. Other than the obvious I think we're functioning quite well. Somewhere I have to come up with money to pay my gramma, get Brookes another b-day present, and save for the two trips I need to take. I need to find a seconf job so Brookes and I don't have to live so tight like this. It sux. Current mood: boredFriday, August 6, 200411:45AMWow! What a crazy week. I'm really upset about Erika. Having cancer that will take over your life so quickly is so hard to deal with. I love Brookes so much, but I know this is going to be very difficult for him. I guess all I can do is pray that a possitive outcome will come of this. Current mood: worriedSunday, August 1, 200411:40PMGrr. I miss him...he just left. I don't really know what to write. I guess he's right. We only write when times are rough. Current mood:  confusedFriday, July 30, 20044:44PMWhere do I begin? This week has been descently good. Out side of the little tiff we got into the middle of this week. Ah well. He's really special to me and if dating other people makes him happier...it's ok. Current mood: contentSunday, July 25, 2004Friday, July 23, 20049:36PMWow. I know I haven't written forever. So much has happened but not really. Monday Brookes and I went on a date. A real date. We went to dinner at Olive Garden and then went and saw SpiderMan 2. It was the greatest. I went to bed the happeist person ever. It was like he put me on this high. He told me I was pretty (cuz I sorta dressed up and did my hair and stuff). It made me feel uber good. Current mood:  lovedSunday, July 18, 20044:56PMWe just got back from the mall. It was nice to spend time with him. Maybe once a week or so we could make time to go out to eat like we did today. He also bought me two pair of pants. He didn't have to, but I kinda needed them. It doesn't leave us with ANY money till I get paid, but I guess that's ok. Current mood: optimisticSaturday, July 17, 20046:51PMWell, I'm gunnu step out of this little box one more time tonight. I'm gunnu go see a couple friends at some little hole in the wall club. I feel soooo bad cuz I won't see Brookes for his lunch break. Also, I didn't get an OK from him first which makes me think he'll be mad at me. I shure hope not. I'll be back before any of them close anyway. It'd be like me heading down to the coffe shop...like he suggested I do anyway. Current mood: lovedFriday, July 16, 200412:31PMThere are so many things to say. I really don't even know if I want to say them. I know he'll read this and get on to me about how I think. My opinions don't matter. After all the work I did last night I feel like it went unappreciated. It's kind of like when I was living with my parents. I would spend hours cleaning the kitchen. They'd come home dump their stuff in there and not say a word. Then after I decided not to say anything to them for a few days they'd wonder why I was mad. Then when I told them I just wanted a thank you they'd say it should've been done anyway and it never should have got like that in the first place. Current mood:  goodThursday, July 15, 20049:18PMToday was a good day. I did my work mostly without being bothered. I made some friends...work friends. It's cool though. I also got paid today. Not as much as I was expecting, but to my relief All bills will be paid. Except mine. Anyways...I went to the grocery store and got everything I needed and then some for 50 bux! Not bad since that's all I planned on in my budget. I also paid the RAC bill. I hope Brookes is happy about that. I also gave some money to TC. And I still have money to pay back Steven. I also did the dishes and the laundry and cleaned the house. I hope Brookes is pleased with that as well. I just want him to be happy with me. Anyways...I'm gunnu stry to lay down and get tired. Hopefully if I get soem good sleep I'll have another good day. I love Brookes. He will always be the best. Current mood:  dorky6:32AMAhhhh. The bright and early mornin'... Current mood:  bouncyWednesday, July 14, 2004Tuesday, July 13, 20044:44PM
Personality cocktail From Go-Quiz.com Sounds about right...minus three parts anger...I'm not that aingsty Current mood:  mischievous6:30AMIt's morning. I'm so tired...but atleast I'm smiling. I really should go to bed when I get home today and not wake up. I'm so exhausted. I fell happy...and that's where we'll leave it. Current mood: happyMonday, July 12, 200412:39AMI've decided not to use this as a dump for all the bad thoughts. Although I doubt I'll take back what's already been said. I don't need more people thinking I'm some lunitic like all his friends do. Plus there's too many Dravers on this stupid piece of trendy shit. I'd hate to know what they think of me thus far, much less after reading this shit. Current mood:  okayNavigate: (Previous 20 entries) |
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